coffeegirl

So I was thinking about some ideas to help me inspire my health transformation and I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions.  Is it a good idea to put up pictures of fit models to inspire me?  Or is it better to put up pictures of myself so I can see how much I want to change? Or both?  What about clothes?  Should I buy smaller sized clothes to motivate me, so that seemingly one day I could fit in them?  Or, is it better to wait?  Help!  What have you all done that has worked the best?  Hope ya’ll have a wonderful day and thanks for your suggestions in advance!

Now I know that eating no carbs at all is just kidding myself because even if I was able to successfully do that I would only gain all the weight right back and plus some.  But, that doesn’t excuse that most of my meals are carb loaded and/or sugar filled.  I need to take more of an initiative to read the labels on food and remember that foods with corn syrup are a no-no.  So why is this so hard? I mean I know I’m not alone here with this addiction.  I also know that people say “well, have a little or eat them in moderation” well if that was so easy don’t you think I wouldn’t be having a problem.  The problem is if they are in my face moderation goes out the window and I become an eating monster.  Next to that, I am at school and I see all these tiny girls eating their bagels, donuts, and muffins and they are not gaining anything!  I mean what is their secret? Is their genes?  I know its terrible to be jealous, but I can’t help it…sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel seems so dim I almost feel like its not there at all….

“I’ll start tomorrow” That is probably my favorite phrase when it comes to getting my health underway.  Somehow everyday I seem to believe that “tomorrow” is the perfect day to begin eating healthy (or working out, which I like to pretend that I am going to begin doing even though I know that is a big ol lie)  I’m really disappointed in myself because I started this network and already I ruined the day by pigging out and then subsequently consoling myself with my favorite mantra “I’ll start tomorrow!”  But this time…do I really mean that?? I SURE HOPE SO!! Already, I have met some truly inspirational and supportive friends on this site and I’m going to finally make a promise to myself and to all of them out there that I can and will do this! Happiness seems so far away, but I have to remember that it does exist and I am not alone.  Even when I get stressed or bored or anxious I should remember that food is not a magical pill that is going to make me feel better.  Thank you to everyone out there that already is or will in the future help me on this journey of wellness because today is tomorrow and the rest of my life!

Oy, so here I am finally making a pact with myself that I am going to lower those numbers on the damn scale!  If only this was as easy as it all sounded we would all magically look like airbrushed models or unhealthy teen fantasy girls on 90210 (which by the way does not compare to the old Spelling crew in the mid 90s!)  I have recently just moved in with new roomates that are on a completely different path than me..aka-they eat whatever they want, whenever they want and don’t give two shits about it.  This worked out for me in the beginning, but I recently just saw a picture of myself and as the story usually goes- I was absolutely disgusted and realized that it was time to take action.  I am also taking college courses at the moment which the work load is not helpful for my stress level triggering eating habits.  However, I am hoping that with others encouragement and advice I can transfer my stress into more helpful habits.  But, let me perfectly honest…I HATE working out and I don’t mean that in the sense where I hate working out but I still go…I mean that I HATE working out and I don’t go.  Not even a little bit.  I have this weird idea that in order to be at a gym you need to look like you have been in a fitness magazine or that you would be willing to (if you aren’t already) work out in  a sports bra.  Yeah, that is not me.  I am more focused on the eating well and less often spectrum, which hopefully will lead to self esteem results and consequently end in me feeling comfortable enough to go to a gym or light jog (who am I kidding mom-jean-powerwalk) around the block and back.  Basically what I’m trying to get at here is I would love any and all encouragement advice, tips, or someone to help keep tabs on me so I feel like my success is also dependent on someone else (and vise versa) which would hopefully convince me to do something to avoid letting someone down!  My goal is to lose 20 pounds (for now) and we will take it from there.